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Jan 3, 2017

Happy New Year

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Oh 2016, you were a sweet one. You had lots of firsts and lots of lasts. You were filled with laughter and beautiful once in a lifetime moments. You brought heartache and unimaginable joy. You brought life's lessons. You brought news of our baby girl coming in just a couple weeks and that, well that makes you one I will never forget and always be grateful for. Here's to a 2017 full of love and life and the things that really matter...  
 
Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year!
Happy New Year
Some Of The Greatest (and Scariest) Stuff
Dec 8, 2016

Some Of The Greatest (and Scariest) Stuff

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I didn't hear it while reading the New York Times or watching Barbara Walter's Most Fascinating People interviews.  No, I actually heard it while crashing on the couch after making cereal for dinner and putting Greyson to early because it was one of THOSE days.  Those long days.  With my fuzzy slippers on and Remington laying next to us, Chris and I were watching one of the singing contest shows (well, I was watching, Chris was reading his favorite home improvement book).  I had just tuned in to hear Ben Folds providing his feedback to a group that had just preformed... "Some of the greatest stuff we do is the scariest stuff we are about to do."
Nov 17, 2016

Exhaling

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E x h a l e . . . That is the word that comes to mind when thinking about summing up this month so far. A slow steady breath. An exhale that our busy wedding season is behind us and that all the holidays bring is before us. An exhale that more of our focus is shifting on anticipating and preparing for our daughter's arrival, pulling from the attic the bins of newborn stuff from when Greyson was a baby. Letting the washing and nesting phase truly begin! An exhale that our favorite time of year is here, one where we find ourselves reflecting and giving thanks for all God has done in the seasons of this year so far... all of His promises that have come to fruition and the plans that have unfolded that were so much better then ours. An exhale as we think back to the unexplainable blessings and undeniable grace this year has been filled with in the midst of life's constant change. 
 
I am so looking forward for a slower exhale and inhale during this special celebratory time of year, and this year, looking forward to our sweet little girl joining us in February! I can't wait to see the magic of this holiday season through Greyson's eyes and heart now that he is a little older! 
 
Yup, slowing down, exhaling and soaking in the excitement and joy of this season is where you can find me. And decorating for Christmas already because I seriously just can't wait until after Thanksgiving this year. Call it nesting. Call it crazy. Just don't judge me! :)
Exhaling
Grace Upon Grace
Oct 21, 2016

Grace Upon Grace

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This sweet baby girl. I can hardly believe I am typing those words. She has been prayed for, hoped for and so deeply loved even before her very first heartbeat. God heard the whispers and prayers of Chris and my heart for her and with each kick I feel its surreal to think she is going be in our arms in a few months!  
 
To be honest, I thought God had used my pregnancy with Greyson to teach me all I was going to as an expectant mother, but how I was so wrong. God has already used this baby girl in such a unique way already, teaching me more about myself and who He says I am and calls me to be. This baby girl has shown me different facets of God's deep deep love and unchanging, unwavering grace. Grace upon grace, that's what this baby and Greyson are. 
 
A cashier at the store the other day asked me when I was due and if it was my first child... I could barely contain my joy and excitement! I told her we are having a daughter and have a beautiful son. Each time I say those words I am overwhelmed with gratitude that I have the honor to say that. I don't take those words lightly or for granted and can hardly believe them as they fall out of my lips. I know that these children are complete blessings and I am so humbled that God would choose me to mother them for the rest of my life. It brings tears to my eyes as I think about how Greyson has rocked Chris and my world so completely in the best way possible and now this little girl is going to do the same. They both keep making us better versions of ourselves. 
 
My sweet baby girl, the amount of love I have for you can't even be put into words or even partially measured. Listening to your brother talk to my tummy and speak words of love to you melts my heart and is just a taste of what him and your daddy and I (and Remington!) feel for you. I can't wait for the day when I will hold you and look into your eyes for the very first time and know that our family of four will be complete.
Sep 26, 2016

A Solid Dose of Life

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You know those times when you are holding on to the coattails of your daily 9-5, just trying to get done all the things on your to do list and reaching for the weekend...? No time to smell the roses but just a time of busyness and checking things off the list... And then all of a sudden you are stopped right in your tracks by a solid dose of LIFE. Well, it happened to me recently and has been on my mind ever since... 
 
That day Chris and I had a lot to get done and one of the things was to go to the Department of Motor Vehicles (DMV). Now, I'll be honest, we had postponed the trip to the DMV for weeks as we were both dreading it. There always seems to be a 3 hour wait and I contemplated bringing a picnic basket just in case we are there all day. 
 
We sat in the chairs facing forward with all the other people waiting there also... I began to people watch and was lulled by the white noise of the automatic announcements... A604, D208, C456.... Some people were clearly NOT happy to be there and were very vocal about it, complaining and arguing with the tellers. After a long wait Chris and I heard our number and we jumped up like we just realized we had BINGO. Chris handed the teller all of our paperwork and they began talking about registration, license, titles, and all that fun stuff. I couldn't help but hear the teller next to me say to the person he was helping, Well why didn't you do this sooner? The woman who was standing there with a young girl smiled and said, I just couldn't bring myself to. This was my son's car. He was killed two years ago when he was leaving a nightclub a couple towns away from here. It was all over the news. He was only 21. 
 
SILENCE. 
 
The teller looked at her and said he was so sorry. The young girl looked up and said, He didn't even have a chance to run, three people shot him 6 times right in the parking lot. I could feel my stomach literally flop and couldnt help but watch the teller as he slowly shuffled their paperwork trying to figure out what to say. The mom clearly trying to lighten the mood joked and said, He was a great boy but not the best driver. The teller forced a small smile that quickly disappeared. He handed back to the mom the clear folder with all of the paperwork in it. He kept this all organized just like this in the console. He had everything in there. The mom ran her hand over the folder, clearly proud of her son. The teller said the total to change the title and make the other changes would be $155. The mom and daughter both opened their wallets and laid money on the counter making sure it totaled the right amount. The teller tried to make small talk and asked the daughter where she worked as she had mentioned she was on her way to her job after this. She told him the food was great where she worked but the uniforms weren't her favorite. The teller forced another smile and told them they were all set. Both women thanked the teller so much for all of his help. They began to walk away and as they did, the teller said something to them. I don't know what he said, but the mom turned around, and with a huge smile said, You know I always do. Thank you again so much and have a good one. 
 
I could feel my throat have that hard lump in it... The trying-so-hard-not-to-cry lump. It was an unexpected dose of life that I was having a hard time swallowing. I couldn't take my eyes of the teller as he just watched them as they walked away. His blinks were just a little bit longer and you could tell a million things were going through his mind as he sat there in silence. The buzz of the DMV was loud again and his stare was interrupted by a loud number being called and another person standing in front of him handing over a pile of papers. The teller looked at the DMV exit door one last time and began shuffling the papers and entering information into his computer. Ashley, do you have your license... Ashley? Chris nudged me. It was probably only about 5 minutes, but it seemed like 30 had gone by and I had totally lost track of what Chris had been doing. 
 
This mother and her daughter's faces have stuck with me. The look in the teller's eyes is something I won't forget. The DMV was crazy with a million people, frustrations, and everyone just going through the motions. It was almost as if it was a microcosm of life. Yet here was this mother's story and this moment. It was a beautiful reminder. To be grateful for what I have. To appreciate loved on more those ones dear to us. To not take a breath for granted, not a single one. It reminded me that life is so so precious and completely fragile and shouldn't be lived racing around holding onto its coattails. Roses are meant to be smelled.
A Solid Dose of Life
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