It's his favorite new toy. And best part? It was free. Yup, Greyson has discovered his toes and must reach out and grab them almost constantly. And let me tell you, they are entertainment for at least 15 minutes straight. Spending time just watching him play with his toes and photographing all his cute faces makes me so very happy.
As Greyson is getting older.... Wait. Before I go on, I have to mention I find it slightly humorous saying "as he is getting older" or "now that he is older" since he is only 4.5 months old. LOL But boy are there so many changes in the first year of life! Anyway, I digress. As Greyson is getting older he needs and wants more. More attention, more playtime, more time awake, more of me. And as he needs more, it's been a challenge to find more time in the day to accomplish everything else from running the business, photo shoots, cleaning the house, grocery shopping, and so on. He sleeps a lot less during the day now and is NOT entertained by watching me answer emails and editing (surprise surprise, i know!). For the past few months I have been juggling everything the best I can, but decided finally to admit something to myself: I needed help. I feel so completely blessed and am so very grateful to be a full time business owner and a full time stay at home mom. But, truth be told, I can't be great at both at the same time with no help during the day while Chris is at work. I have been hustling big time, waking up at 5am and not going to bed until 11pm, working before Greyson wakes up and after he goes to bed. And for those of you who know me, this girl needs her sleep. And at least 8 hours of it!?
I don't want to be "Super Mom." I don't want to be the kind of super mom that strives for perfection and doing it all, but nothing with intention. I don't want to be a Super Mom because I have way too many things juggling in the air and I am barely getting by with keeping things going. I don't want to glorifying "busy." At the end of the day, I want to be an AWESOME mom, the BEST mom to Greyson I can be. I want to be a GREAT business owner and photographer, but not at the sacrifice of my family or to the level of service to my clients. I want to be present and intentional in whatever I am doing. End of story.
So, I have been making some changes. One of which is now using Pea Pod to have our groceries delivered now and then straight to the house! (how did I not do this sooner?!) I also started making dinners and freezing them on Sundays when Chris is home watching the little guy to save time during the week. But the biggest thing is we recently hired a babysitter to watch Greyson at the house so I can be in my office with the door shut a few mornings a week with no distractions. And boy what a difference it has made. I have been so much more productive when in my office and can truly enjoy down time with Greyson, not think about all I have on my To Do list. I think deep down inside I felt like I should
be Super Mom and should
juggle everything. I am not one to ask for help and can get stuck in my ways, but these changes have made me a better mom and business owner already. It has freed up my schedule more and has provided a new routine that helps me do all I need to. Now I can truly enjoy watching Greyson play with his toes for an extra hour without the distraction of thinking about ALL I have do get done or constantly multi tasking. The changes and help have given me the freedom to be more present.
So I challenge you to ask yourself what change, however small or simple, can you make to be a better you? A better photographer, a better employee, a better wife, a better dad, a better friend? What adjustment can you make in your daily routine to be more PRESENT and INTENTIONAL? Maybe it means getting up a little earlier to get ready for work so you can sit down and eat breakfast with your kids before heading out the door. Maybe it's waiting to do the dishes until the next morning instead of when your friends are over for dinner so you can have more great conversation with them. Maybe it's taking on less projects next month so you can focus and give more of yourself to the ones you currently have. Whatever it might be, maybe you just need a little reminder like I did that change is needed and can be good... That being super means truly living and soaking in the present.