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Jul

I Don't Want To Be Super Mom

It's his favorite new toy. And best part? It was free. Yup, Greyson has discovered his toes and must reach out and grab them almost constantly. And let me tell you, they are entertainment for at least 15 minutes straight. Spending time just watching him play with his toes and photographing all his cute faces makes me so very happy. 
 
As Greyson is getting older.... Wait. Before I go on, I have to mention I find it slightly humorous saying "as he is getting older" or "now that he is older" since he is only 4.5 months old. LOL But boy are there so many changes in the first year of life! Anyway, I digress. As Greyson is getting older he needs and wants more. More attention, more playtime, more time awake, more of me. And as he needs more, it's been a challenge to find more time in the day to accomplish everything else from running the business, photo shoots, cleaning the house, grocery shopping, and so on. He sleeps a lot less during the day now and is NOT entertained by watching me answer emails and editing (surprise surprise, i know!). For the past few months I have been juggling everything the best I can, but decided finally to admit something to myself: I needed help. I feel so completely blessed and am so very grateful to be a full time business owner and a full time stay at home mom. But, truth be told, I can't be great at both at the same time with no help during the day while Chris is at work. I have been hustling big time, waking up at 5am and not going to bed until 11pm, working before Greyson wakes up and after he goes to bed. And for those of you who know me, this girl needs her sleep. And at least 8 hours of it!?  
 
I don't want to be "Super Mom." I don't want to be the kind of super mom that strives for perfection and doing it all, but nothing with intention. I don't want to be a Super Mom because I have way too many things juggling in the air and I am barely getting by with keeping things going. I don't want to glorifying "busy." At the end of the day, I want to be an AWESOME mom, the BEST mom to Greyson I can be. I want to be a GREAT business owner and photographer, but not at the sacrifice of my family or to the level of service to my clients. I want to be present and intentional in whatever I am doing. End of story. 
 
So, I have been making some changes. One of which is now using Pea Pod to have our groceries delivered now and then straight to the house! (how did I not do this sooner?!) I also started making dinners and freezing them on Sundays when Chris is home watching the little guy to save time during the week. But the biggest thing is we recently hired a babysitter to watch Greyson at the house so I can be in my office with the door shut a few mornings a week with no distractions. And boy what a difference it has made. I have been so much more productive when in my office and can truly enjoy down time with Greyson, not think about all I have on my To Do list. I think deep down inside I felt like I should be Super Mom and should juggle everything. I am not one to ask for help and can get stuck in my ways, but these changes have made me a better mom and business owner already. It has freed up my schedule more and has provided a new routine that helps me do all I need to. Now I can truly enjoy watching Greyson play with his toes for an extra hour without the distraction of thinking about ALL I have do get done or constantly multi tasking. The changes and help have given me the freedom to be more present. 
 
So I challenge you to ask yourself what change, however small or simple, can you make to be a better you? A better photographer, a better employee, a better wife, a better dad, a better friend? What adjustment can you make in your daily routine to be more PRESENT and INTENTIONAL? Maybe it means getting up a little earlier to get ready for work so you can sit down and eat breakfast with your kids before heading out the door. Maybe it's waiting to do the dishes until the next morning instead of when your friends are over for dinner so you can have more great conversation with them. Maybe it's taking on less projects next month so you can focus and give more of yourself to the ones you currently have. Whatever it might be, maybe you just need a little reminder like I did that change is needed and can be good... That being super means truly living and soaking in the present.

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Jul

A Great Love

This past weekend was Greyson's baby dedication at our church and it has been a day Chris and I have been looking forward to since he was born. After the special ceremony our families celebrated with a poolside BBQ. And yes I did make the watermelon, feta, mint salad I posted about last week - it was a huge hit! :)  
 
Days before the BBQ, I did what has become a daily event for me - I wrote a list of things to remember to bring. The first thing at the top of the list, don't laugh, was my camera. I know, you are probably thinking why would I need to remind myself to bring THAT of all things! But to be honest, I am behind my lens for other people's celebrations so much I often forget to bring it with me to our own celebrations! :) And I am so glad I didn't forget it because of moments like these. All four of Greyson's living great grandparents were there and what a blessing it was. To see this generation holding our son was an incredible thing to witness and capture. Chris' grandpa on the left is 93 years old and my grandpa on the right is 91 and a half. Yes, he always makes sure to include the half. Because, in his words, every month counts when your his age. And this weekend was the first time these two great grandpas had met. Shortly after I took these photos, the two agreed to celebrate their 100 birthdays together and make sure they get their faces on Smuckers jelly jars. And then they shook on it. Literally. It was the sweetest moment. And right then and there I made a promise to myself to bring my camera with me to our family get togethers all the time so that I can have precious photos like these to remember their gentle but great love for Greyson and life.  
 
Little Greyson was all tuckered out from the day... clearly. :)

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Jul

Summer Salad

I WISH I could take credit for this yummy salad recipe, but alas it is the creation of Paula Deen. However, I feel that it is my duty to pass it along because it is just that delicious! My friend and fellow Photog Sarah made this watermelon, feta, mint salad at our Shoot & Share Photographer annual summer BBQ a few weeks ago and it was a huge hit! I am making it this weekend for a family BBQ we are having and will not correct anyone who things I made it up myself. Just saying. :) Best part is there is no cooking involved, so I am pretty sure I can't mess it up. Right?! Enjoy! :) 
 
Have a fabulous weekend filled will all things amazing! Like this salad... LOL #yourewelcome 
 
PS Don't judge it by the horrible picture - it taste way better then it looks in this photo! :)

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Jul

All We Aren't Doing

Plain and simple, it is so easy to be consumed with what we are NOT doing. We look and see what other people ARE doing and add to our list of what we AREN'T doing. Am I right?  
 
It's like driving on a road and instead of looking back in the rear view mirror at how far we have come and looking straight ahead at where we are going, we are looking out the window at everything else whizzing by. We get distracted by all that sparkles. The accomplishments of others somehow get picked up along the way and added to our To Do list. That drive of distraction can look something like this: She launched a new website (I have to redo ours), they are doing stylized shoots (I need to start planning more of those), his work is getting featured (I need to have more weddings featured more often), they are shooting a destination wedding (I need to book more destination weddings immediately), he hosted a workshop in 10 cities (I need to host one in 10 countries). They are remodling their living room (we need to update our entire first floor), she does Zumba everyday (I need to become certified to teach Zumba), they just went on a family vacation (we need to go on a family trip this year that is epic), she is president of the PTA (I need to be president of something. Anything.), she cooked an amazing recipe for her family for dinner (I need to make dinner recipes I found on Pinterest during the week and then post lots of photos of it to as proof). Soon our car is FULL of what we are not doing and we are left exhausted and disheartened. We can't even see anymore what we have done and are doing. Our "Why" gets stuffed in the trunk somewhere and we find ourselves chasing things just to get them off of the "Not Doing" list. 
 
This crazy drive can take hold of our hearts and our focus in every single aspect of our lives if we let it. And it's so easy for this thinking to take root. Trust me I get it. I do. I will be the first to admit I am totally guilty of this and have a constant mental list of all the things I could be doing in my life - my business, my family, my home. And let me tell you, it is a loooong list. 
 
But the truth of the matter is by focusing on all that we are not doing, we will always feel like we are coming up short. In doing so we will always feel like we are not good enough and are undermining the achievement of what we ARE doing. And, I will tell you... wait first put your coffee down. I am going to tell you something that might just blow your mind. Coffee down? Ok good. Here it is: there will always be people that will be doing more then you. Mind.blown. Yes, its true. Now we can let this cause us more anxiety and stress. We can put our energy in trying to keep up with Joneses and drive distracted. Or, we can look ahead and behind, energized by all we have accomplished and all that we are doing. We can be fueled by the knowledge that we are doing the best we can with what we ARE doing. We can do things whole heartedly and with intention and be proud of that. We can give what we are doing 110% percent and not give a million things 10% just to get it off the Not Doing list. We can celebrate with others what they have accomplished and let it motivate us to continue to march forward on our own path. We can drop the comparisons and drive confidently and with excitement. Because who you are is enough. What you ARE doing is worth celebrating and not shortchanging.  
 
Please feel free to now resume your coffee drinking. :)

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Jul

Dear Sweet Greyson

Dear Sweet Greyson, 
 
Please stop growing so quickly! Like seriously. How are you already 4 months old already?! People tell me time flies and kids grow up so quickly, and I am beginning to see what they mean. Sometimes when you are taking a nap in your crib I will tip toe into your room just to watch you peacefully sleeping. I could just watch you sleep for hours. But the other day I was so surprised to find a little boy sleeping there instead of my tiny little baby... My little boy who always wakes up with the big smile that I just adore. 
 
You have always been such a happy baby, always smiling from your first weeks of life. I think you got that from your dad. :) But now you are starting to giggle and I almost can't even handle it. It is the most amazing sound I have ever heard. My heart just about bursts every time you smile and start to laugh. And those ocean blue eyes and little toes - it's so much cuteness! I will admit, you definitely have your dad and I wrapped around your tiny finger. Not to mention Nana and Pop and your grandparents!  
 
You are such an amazing miracle and blessing that I still can't believe I get to be a mother to you forever. Looking forward to all of the things you will continue to teach me about life along with the adventures and snuggles I know month 5 will bring! 
 
I love you, 
 
xo Mommy

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